Don’t air your dirty laundry in public.
Everybody has heard this saying. As I prepare to share this blog with my Facebook friends, that’s exactly what I’m afraid people will think I’m doing.
I have to admit, I’m writing post while staring at the dirty laundry on the floor of my bedroom, and I would NEVER want anyone to see this mess. It’s embarrassing. I get the saying, I really do… but I still have my reasons for keeping this blog.
- People ask me questions a lot. Questions about EDs in general, about how I’m doing, about how to help friends — you name it, I’ve been asked it. Hopefully this blog will be a resource for people who genuinely want to learn.
- I’m not embarrassed about my ED. In fact, taking ownership of what I’ve been through is indescribably empowering.
- Sharing my thoughts with the general public makes me try to put a positive spin on everything. I don’t want any post to be negative, so sometimes I have to change my perspective and find the positive in everything in order to make something post-able.
- It’s not fair. It’s not fair that my friends get to keep blogs of their study abroad journeys while my ED has taken away plans to study abroad in Tours, France and in Dar es Salaam, Tanzania. It is fair, though, if I get to share my own journey through recovery. This journey is just as exciting and just as life changing as study abroad, if not more!
- We, as a culture, need more dialogue about EDs. The stigma of mental health diseases mystifies me — if I had cancer (God forbid), everyone would reach out for support, want to learn about it, and care more deeply about cancer treatment. As it stands, people sometimes walk on eggshells around me. They don’t know what to say, or they’re embarrassed to know what I deal with. That’s OK; it’s natural to feel uncomfortable around a “sick” person, especially when the disease is one that is so misunderstood. Did you know, though, that research funding for diseases like autism and Alzheimer’s FAR outstrips funding for ED research, even though EDs are the most fatal mental illnesses and affect far more people? That’s not right. We need to talk. I need to blog.
So, if you see my sharing as TMI, if you think I’m airing dirty laundry — take a step back and reconsider. This ED is such a huge part of my story (the same goes for anyone else, whether currently suffering, in full recovery, or anywhere in between), and I won’t be silent about it. Instead of dirty laundry, I think I’m putting on a fashion show — sharing the beauty of information, positivity, resources, and my own journey to anyone who reads this blog.